(Mainly petty problems) of human nature

There are a few things that I don’t understand about human nature.

Here’s a prime example: My friend, let’s call her Tina for privacy purposes, and I were having a conversation about a person that I used to be very close with. Let’s call her Fey. Tina was telling me how Fey and her were on decent terms with each other, and from time to time, Tina would bring my name up in conversation with Fey. Fey would respond negatively, telling how she didn’t care for me as a person. 

Oddly enough, I already knew this. I’m unsure whether it’s the daggers she shot me in the hallway, the overall non-acknowledgement of my existence anymore, or that she would tell my friends that she didn’t like that told me that she didn’t like me. But get this: I was still upset about it. I was upset because something that I already knew and admitted to myself had been proven true.

WHY?

Why was I so upset about something that I already knew about? Was it that I wasn’t ready to accept it? No. 

It’s like this: Humans strive for acceptance.You can tell all the lies you want about how you don’t want to be liked, but they’re still lies. No one wants to be hurt. No one.

But damnit, sometimes that’s life. 

As the day went on, I realized how petty the whole matter was. Someone that used to enjoy my presence no longer does. So what? People change every day. High school is the prime time of change and development. We took separate roads in the yellow wood. 

“The more you know who you are, and what you want, the less you let things upset you.” 
― Stephanie Perkins, Anna and the French Kiss

I know who I am. I may change tomorrow, but I’ll know who that person is.